Now I know it ain't right, but I decided I hadta' & Us poets paint life, but don't get recognized till afta' & So I faked my own death just to see what would happen & As I taje shallow breaths and wait for people's reaction & It was funny at first, but I had to hold my laughter...wait & Before long I was on display at an open casket wake & And I'm the main attraction who draws a crowd. A freak show of sorts & Good thing my skin is pale enough to pass as a decomposing corpse & Frozen in my thoughts, laying stiff...playing with & People's emotions and awaiting a kiss from praying lips that I hate but miss. She didn't show...although she sent a card with flowers & How considerate. That little bitch would make me sit in my car for hours & Heartless powers start to devour my patience...it gets me violent & I'm ready to fly shit and end everything like "I QUIT!" Then again I sit deathly quiet...biting my tongue & Just excited that some kids...who were invited to come did & I'm the center of attention...the talk of the town & It ain;t all that profound, but on this special day of mine I'm the one the universe revolves around & It's like a birthday...kind of. I also found that it's the worst way to find love. White doves battle black crows in one of the back rows & And everybody my ass knows back home is sporting black clothes & Looking glum as usual...it's all too familliar & I put the fun back into funeral. My morbid humor'll kill ya' & For all that it's worth...the people who I thought were jerks & Were putting on the water works and it sorta hurts & My momma stroked my hair with so much care but hardly spoke & Now my heart is broke, and yeah...I should've let her in on the joke & But I'm honestly choked up, and I'm stuck holding back my tears & As I absorb the atmosphere, "I wanna turn back I'm scared!" Then a hand touches my shoulder to calm my nerves & And something odd occurs because I heard my father's words & So I got disturbed...as he expressed what he's never said & What bothered me the most is that I remembered...he's dead & I manifested destiny. The best and worst of worlds has come true & As I'm buried alive, in the back of my mind echoes his words: "I love you."
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